Schizophrenic word salad

Howdy! I've been quite unwell for some time so blogging has not been a possibility. Today is my first attempt at communicating and it might come out crazy (hence the title). I hate Abilify. Let's prescribe a drug to help with mood stabilizing that makes you ANXIOUS. That's intelligent. Geez, Louise. And people wonder why Van Gogh cut off his ear! What else might he cut off had he been on Abilify or Prozac? I'm not blaming my doctor, he's been trying to help me but I do blame the drugs. Today we start the quest back toward normality and cleaning up the wreckage of the past 6 weeks. Fun! Even though I'll be returning to my usual cocktail we still haven't solved the problem of dizziness. My buddy Crystal is trying to find an anti-emetic that will work with Seroquel. Any suggestions, folks? Okay, there is another topic I briefly wanted to touch on: hegemonic masculinity and how it's been shaped by gay men and/or gay icons. Think of all those young boomer men growing up with Rock Hudson, Tab Hunter, Robert Reed (Mike Brady) as masculine icons. It's always been interesting how consistently gay culture has shaped straight society which then influences gay culture. Why do people continue to hold to hard and fast ideals of gender expression when time has shown us that gender has always been fluid? At some point Vin Diesel or some other brawny  Hollywood star will come out and shake popular culture. What I look forward to is the day when that happens and a fourteen year old boy in Virginia goes "Yeah, so. He still kicks ass."